So once I learned about my proportions, I wanted to create a world where I saw myself, girls like me, so I could be happy with the way I was NATURALLY built.
I know I sound like a broken record but this is horrible and the worst part is that I thought I could look like this.
I think another biting part of this whole thing is the fact that some people, skinny and average, have been getting mad at statements like "curves are beautiful" and real women have "curves". Some explain how using statements like that is considered descrimination.
I'm sorry to cut it to you people who feel this way, but curvy women are normal yet we live in a society where we strive to say that beauty is skinny. Women are meant to have curves for children bearing and, yes people are naturally skinny, but we are in a society where their beauty has been glorified and worshiped, and that is known and imprinted in our subconscious. They don't need the messages that skinny is beautiful. The media is based on Western Hemisphere beauty, so don't cry to me because you want more pro skinny photos.
It's just as damaging as hearing "we need white entertainment channels" and "we need white history month". Curvy body types are an oppressed population, particularly short torso and long legged bodies.
But anyway, getting back to the short torsos especially, we are definitely oppressed because even the skinny short torso long legged women, are never shown in fitness magazines, modeling magazines, and on TV. And fashion lines don't find our body type good enough to make clothes that may work for our body type as well.
And it's worse if you're a woman of color of course. So where did having a short torso and curvy figure place me in an all white community? A. I got in trouble for wearing clothes that "showed" cleavage, when all the other non curvy girls showed much more, and B. I got detention in private school for wearing a skirt that was much longer than all the girls in my school put together.
Society learns to shame women for having curves, and just google curvy women, you will find more sexual photos compared to the women that are skinny posing in ads and what not.
It's so complicated being a girl, especially with a body type that is deemed as ugly or hypersexual. We learn from viewing things in the media, "So remember ladies, its your fault that you wore that dress. You should never dress that way if you have such a 'sexual body'.Its your fault for showing off your daring forbidden curves if a man's mind goes to the gutter, or if you remind him of this magazine cover."
But it's beautiful! Just look at old paintings. The glorified women were curvy and also had short torsos and different sorts of curvy body types. It wasn't all about the skinny girls with long torsos. Yes they were for the most part naked, but this was no where near forbidden hyper sexual, this was the way it was and what people were used to.
So yes this may seem like a generalization and this of course does not apply to all short torso women, but I do sense discrimination for this body type. And I was one of the skinny girls in those photos above. But my curves disappeared, and I looked way skinner than I was supposed to look. It didn't look or feel right because it wasn't right.
And this doesn't apply to all short torso long legged women. Some are naturally skinny, but like I said, I do feel there is some sort if discrimination and longer torso women with smaller frames are more idolized, which gives women with a shorter torso or a different body type to feel that they are not skinny enough.
This is one of the reasons I love Beyonces come back. She's curvy but she represents a well rounded woman. Same with Kate Winslet. They are not showing they are these man eating curvy women, they demand respect and if they want to ooze sexuality, they'll do it for their own sake of feeling like a woman or for their own sexual cravings.
The women on the cover of men hip hop magazines, have beautiful bodies, but using their bodies to relate to men's sexual health and well being only, is so limiting. Why can't we see someone like K.Michelle on Cosmos or Shapes? Is it because she doesn't have a "respectable" body? She has a short torso like me, and she has amazing curves? Why is she representing men's sexual health and well being only?
If I want to wear a bikini bathing suit, I will. If I want to wear a miniskirt with a shirt that hugs my curves, I will. And I will no longer feel ashamed or aspire to have a long more modest torso because that's not who I am. And I won't feel uncomfortable for people who's minds go to the gutter and feel that I owe them an apology or an obligation. That's their own fault and they have to deal with their own problems.
For now, I will show off my short torso and long legs. I WILL be seen today and tomorrow. And you all should do the same and embrace them :).